Discombobulate:  to throw into a state of confusion.

That’s what I’m feeling this week. Discombobulated.  Thrown into a state of confusion.  But it’s not a bad confusion.  It’s just a confused confusion, an off balance, which way is up confusion.  A feeling of suddenly discovering that there are more pieces to the puzzle than   I had realized and I’m so glad to have found them but now I’m faced with figuring out where and how they all fit in.  Definitely discombobulated.

Eight days in the Dominican Republic with 10 wonderfully crazy women on a Service/Learning adventure apparently results in total and complete discombobulation.

I walk outside now and my body shakes and my teeth rattle and everything is stark white.  Where is the warmth? The lush green? The palm trees and mango trees?  The flowers?

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I’m missing my 10 life long friends that I met for the first time just two months ago.  I can’t understand how it is that I haven’t always known them.


I’m missing starting my day in the Doulos staff prayer circle and ending my day with popcorn prayers, while we keep one eye open watching for the tree rat scurrying around above us.

And where has my dear sweet driver, Giovanni, gone?  I had to drive myself to Target this morning and backed right into the the garbage can.


No fresh mango and pineapple to go with my oatmeal.  No one to bring me tea and biscuits at night while I sit around with my dear, sweet, brand new, life long friends and discuss how to make all the new pieces fit.  And then, there are all the new friends that we made and had to say goodbye to.  So many amazing people, with so many amazing stories and I wonder if I will ever get to see them again.  So much to miss…

And now it’s back to reality….but it’s a such a great reality!  And I’m so glad to be home.  So glad to be back to these smiling faces.


And it felt so, so good to sleep in my own bed!  With my own pillow!

And to turn on the faucet right there in my kitchen and have plenty of fresh, clean, safe water right there, ready to drink up.  And a nice WARM shower.  How is it that I ever let these things slip past me without even realizing how incredibly fortunate I was.  How I hope that I won’t let that happen again.  How I hope that I won’t forget.


And to go to Target and recognize every food, be able to read every sign and label.  To talk easily with the cashier and not have to play charades to try to communicate.  It’s all so easy and so comfortable.

I am so happy to be home (and my Dad is even happier).  But I am also discombobulated.  Because there is so much that I miss, so much that I learned, so much I want to share.  And I want so badly to share the story well.  I want to tell you about every single minute we were there and show you ever single picture, all 400+, even the blurry out of focus ones.  But I really don’t want your eyes to glaze over and I really don’t want to start sounding like Charlie Brown’s teacher.  And I have no idea where to start.

So I’m going to take a couple of days and try to get less discombobulated and try to figure out how to tell the story.  But in the meantime, I just want to say, sometimes good things happen when you cross the Mississippi.

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4 Responses to Discombobulated

  1. Lisa says:

    So glad you had such a wonderful trip. Sounds like you & your group were a blessing to many. Good luck acclimating back to the cold. I think “discombobulated” is exactly the right word for this post!

  2. Sharon says:

    YEAH–so glad you are home & had a wonderful trip!

  3. TikkTok says:

    Totally depends on which direction you cross the mighty MS, for sure. I sure understand this feeling, as I’m in the throes of it myself.

  4. Mom says:

    We are so glad you are home and anxious to hear all about the trip

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